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I am not the first person you loved.
You are not the first person I looked at
with a mouthful of forevers. We
have both known loss like the sharp edges
of a knife. We have both lived with lips
more scar tissue than skin. Our love came
unannounced in the middle of the night.
Our love came when we’d given up
on asking love to come. I think
that has to be part
of its miracle.

This is how we heal.
I will kiss you like forgiveness. You
will hold me like I’m hope. Our arms
will bandage and we will press promises
between us like flowers in a book.
I will write sonnets to the salt of sweat
on your skin. I will write novels to the scar
of your nose. I will write a dictionary
of all the words I have used trying
to describe the way it feels to have finally,
finally found you.

And I will not be afraid
of your scars.

I know sometimes
it’s still hard to let me see you
in all your cracked perfection,
but please know:
whether it’s the days you burn
more brilliant than the sun
or the nights you collapse into my lap
your body broken into a thousand questions,
you are the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen.
I will love you when you are a still day.
I will love you when you are a hurricane.

Clementine von Radics, Mouthful of Forevers (via the59thstreetbridge)

jesus fucking christ yes

(via padmeamidala)

(Source: lovemestarkly)

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how do i expect myself to be intimate in any way with a person when i cant even open and save a picture of them in a shirt and underwear where you can see the outline of his dick @_@

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I am talking to Ross about taking care of the cat. I would love to keep her, but I know in my current situation I wouldn’t be able to ensure she has food or litter when I can’t even feed myself. She has enough food and litter to last until the end of the month, but I don’t know about after that. 

I hate that she’s stuck in my room all day, every day. I’m afraid to let her out because I don’t trust Neal’s dog. I want her to be happy and safe, and right now she doesn’t have that. 

If Ross does take her, it’s going to really suck, because now I’ll truly be alone, but I’ll know she’s happy and healthy and with someone I trust her with. 

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kunlaisummit:

Fireworks were a good way to end the day.
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perfunctory:

it’s so cute when you talk to someone a lot and then you notice the little phrases that you use and the stupid little things you say slipping into their vocabulary more and more

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It feels good to think about you when I’m warm in bed. I feel as if you’re curled up there beside me, fast asleep. And I think how great it would be if it were true.

Haruki Murakami, Norwegian Wood (via hiu-n)

(Source: rabbitinthemoon)

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janmariel:

you know you’re attached to someone when you’ve gotten so used to talking to them on a daily basis and they’ve become a part of your happiness but when you guys don’t talk it’s like a part of you is gone and you just start to miss them uncontrollably

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